Friday, 29 July 2011

My Heart Is True

Take my dreams higher,
Live my life stronger,
I will open my door wider,
To fill my life with love.
Run a bit further,
Shout a little louder,
Jump a little higher,
My life is filled with joy.

Take a step closer,
Move swift and quicker,
Rejoice a little deeper,
Let the crowd gather.
I will laugh the laughter of truth,
Let happy tears flood my face,
For today, this heart is true.

Spread my wings and fly,
I will brush the sky today.
Raise my hands up high,
I want the whole world to see.
Stand on the high mountain and shout,
What better way to celebrate this love?
Our hearts beat powerful and true,
There is no fear, no doubt, no tears down this face.

Monday, 18 July 2011

Taking Over A Life

A life so easily controlled,
He took my life and made it his.
A dream so cautiously taken over,
He changed it to look like it was his.
Daily shaping me into what he wants,
He changed my face, my clothes, my being,
Making me an image of his dream,
This dream is so different from my own.

Days go by and I loose myself,
Weeks go by and my clothes look dull.
Months go by and he chooses my friends,
Years go by without me seeing my family.
Time flies, he has won.
He has crafted his dream woman,
A woman who listens without questioning,
A woman so lost she never looks up,
The ground has become her daily friend,
For his eyes are filled with so much anger.

I am not me anymore,
Trapped in a body I hardly recognize.
Daily I long for a way out,
A voice to make me braver than last fall.
Who do I belong to if not him,
My soul he took over,
My dream he shattered into pieces,
Just like he did last spring.

Who said I needed to be put in my place?
Who gave him permission to put out my light?
He knows my weaknesses,
But he has not seen my strengths.
With a little spark today,
This soul will be free tomorrow.

Thursday, 14 July 2011

The Time Of The Moon

And there he was, standing silently alone,
His heart beating as he watched it fade away.
A light that had brightened his days,
Sinking into the merciless clouds.
An inch, he clung to it, a drop he held for life.
And there he was, standing greeting the dark,
Convinced happiness was forever gone.

He stood with a heart torn to pieces,
Wondering what comes after it fades.
He counted, yes he stood there counting.
Each number ripped a piece of him,
Each tick, each tock, each passing minute.
He stood, he watched, he braced himself.

An emptiness overcame him, love lost,
It has a way of gripping and shaking a heart.
There in the shadows, no sound could be heart,
Still he stood, thinking what comes next.
He was shattered, your grave was still new.
He was broken, your scent ever so fresh.
The sun had vanished, his hurt remained.
That is why he stood there waiting.

He saw something in the distance, bright.
He watched, his bleeding heart wide open.
And as the light got brighter he felt it.
He lifted his head, he held it high.
His fear subsided, hurt turned to hope.
New beginnings, he found new light.
For it was finally the time of the moon.

Monday, 11 July 2011

Childless Mother

My womb has never carried a baby,
No nine months of pregnancy bliss for me.
I know nothing about the swollen ankles,
Can't tell you nothing about morning sickness.
This is a story of a mother, a childless mother is me.

I don't know anything about the baby kicks,
Or how it feels when the baby turns,
Those are my deepest desires.
The wacky cravings women always get,
That again is one I can't tell about,
A childless mother, a yearning heart.

I am a childless mother with empty arms longing to hold,
My heart is wide open, eyes filled with tears.
Rocking back and forth, my baby in my arms,
Listening to the breathing, being in tune with it.
Listening to the heartbeat, inhaling the perfec scent.
Scent of my own baby, centre of my world.

Watching the eyes while feeding, tiny fingers on my chest.
I long to put my baby to sleep, to hum as they drift to dream land.
I hunger for a chance to hold my baby close to my heart,
A heart that would beat stronger with a touch.
Raising the little angel, with my eyes and a face
That is much better than mine.

Day and night the longing goes deeper,
My arms are empty, my heart is big.
I am a mother, a childless mother is me.

Tuesday, 05 July 2011

Soldier Lady

Soldier Lady

Her name is mystery, her eyes are dark,
her coat is long, her destiny unknown,
her sorrow runs deep, her fears hidden,
this girl is a hero, yet no one can tell.

Her arms are inviting, her lips are sealed,
her chest is warm, her legs are strong,
her journey long, her path not clear,
this girl is a woman, slowly finding herself.

Who knows her struggle, no one sees her tears.
Who notices when her clouds turn the shade of grey?
Who picks up the pieces of her heart?
Who paves her way and clears the dirt?
No one can, no one sees her struggle because
this woman is strong; she can keep it all in.

Now her name is joy, her name is strength,
Now her skirt is shorter, her eyes shine bright,
Now her sorrow is gone, her future looks bright,
This girl is a hero, I gotta hand it to her

Let The Tears Come

Let The Tears Come

As I close the doors and draw back the curtains,
reality strikes me like a thunder bolt.
Yesterday you were here but today
you're as far as the distant star,
that twinkles and fades when the night says bye.
That is why I will draw back the curtains,
to form an artificial night.

How can I go on without my heart?
Nothing can keep the fire burning brightly.
The place filled with flowers
and beautifully falling tiny raindrops,
that place now lies beyond the stare of my eyes.
The friend who knew the scars on my skin,
now is at a place where my eyes cannot reach.
This is the reason my blinds are down tonight,
no one will see my pain today.

I don't want to face this world,
without you it is a hallow place.
I see faces with no expressions,
there are no smiles and
buckets of empty eyes.
will stay in my room and sulk,
shrivelled up in a ball ready to explode.

I will clutch my covers close to my chest.
Yes no one knows the pain within,
no one knew the friend you were.
That is why I will draw back the curtains,
And hold your face with memory.

Journey into the Unknown

Yesterday I decided to go,
My bags were packed, my map in hand.
I looked above, the sky was clear.
I looked beyond, could not see my destination.
Today I am leaving with my map in hand.

I will climb the highest mountains,
Sail through the strongest storms.
Fight the angry current,
For I want to get to the other side.
I will walk through the dry desert,
No heat will burn my desire.
My destiny unclear, my feet so swollen,
I will push myself to the limit,
This is my journey to travel.

Today I am taking my journey,
Leaving all I know behind.
The smiles that I have come to know,
The familiar faces that greet me.
The mountains I call my home
And the air that blows on my cheeks.
Do not worry about me,
Let me go find my own way.

It is time to start my journey,
Not knowing what's waiting
On the other side.
My soul says yes,
My heart rejoices.
For this is a time to take that chance,
To jump and fall on my own.
So what if I break a bone or two.

Monday, 04 July 2011

Under Your Mask

You chased me down, I felt special,
Made you sweat, made you prove yourself.
You didn’t give up, I felt wanted,
I made you show you had eyes for just me.
You wooed me, you whispered to me, I felt needed,
Then I gave in, you had proven yourself worthy.

You enjoyed my smile, you liked my scent, I felt lovely,
I flashed that smile just for you, like our little secret.
You worshipped my body, loved those curved, man I felt beautiful,
Wore the right clothes, flaunted my curves.
You were the one, the song in my heart.
A smile, a laugh, true love I thought.

Today you speak so loud, you look so mad, I feel guilty.
I apologize not knowing for what.
You grab so roughly, you take without asking, I feel so used.
Still I make myself look good for you.
You curse, you spit, you push, I feel unwanted,
But I don’t walk away, though you’re proving yourself unworthy